Saturday, May 26, 2012

Price of a Dream

for tonite im going to tell a story..

about me and the dream i had.......

Tiap tiap mimpi kan orang cakap mesti ada maksud.. even mimpi tu mainan tido sometimes mimpi pun boleh jadi i rite?  Well for me I cant actually put my finger on mine. 

But i do understand one thing im thankful for it. I started having these dreams 3 months ago. X pernah nak bercerita ngan sape2..

In the first dream I was standing in my front yard , i can remember everything. Bunyi tu, bau waktu panas effect glow of the sun ,vivid giler. But that changed fast when I saw a huge black dog. I remember the fear washing through me.x lari pun, i just stood there. So it charged me. It was about 5 feet away when i got knocked sideways.

Now in my regular dreams the people i see such as family memembers are kinda like ghost. Their there i can see them but i cant actually feel their presence. This was different. When they knocked me sideways i practically felt the heat coming off their body. But thing is i dont remember their face. 

So the dreams continued. 

Everytime i dream im about to be hurt or somthing bad is going to happen "THEIR" there. I can never see their face its like a blur. I would give anything to understand what the meaning of these are. Are they real ? Or a stranger of my mind.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Kisah Biskut

Seorang wanita di lapangan terbang sedang menunggu waktu penerbangannya. Sambil menunggu, dia makan biskut yang dibelinya sebelum itu dan membaca buku cerita. Sedang dia makan dia terperasan yang lelaki disebelahnya turut mengambil biskut dari bungkusan yang sama yang terletak di sebelahnya.

Setiap keping biskut yang dia ambil lelaki itu turut mengambil sama. Di dalam hati wanita itu menyumpah-nyumpah lelaki itu.

“Alangkah tak malunya lelaki ni….. dah la tak mintak dari aku…. makan sama banyak dengan aku pulak tu…Pencuri!! ” rungut wanita itu dalam hati.

Dalam pada itu, lelaki itu dengan muka yang tenang terus dengan perbuatannya. Hinggalah sampai ke biskut terakhir yang terdapat dalam bungkusan itu. Wanita itu menunggu reaksi dari lelaki itu. Sambil tersenyum lelaki itu mengambil biskut yang terakhir itu lalu dipatah dua lantas memberikan separuh darinya kepada wanita itu. Wanita itu menjadi begitu marah namun dia tetap menahan dirinya dari memarahi lelaki itu.

Sambil merampas dengan kasar biskut yang separuh itu dan menunjukkan mukanya yang masam mencuka, wanita itu berkata dalam hatinya.

“Berani sungguh lelaki ni. Memang muka tak malu. Pencuri besar.” kata hatinya dengan marah.

Kedua-dua wanita dan lelaki itu terus duduk sehingga panggilan untuk menaiki pesawat untuk wanita itu sampai. Sambil menarik nafas lega seolah baru lepas dari satu kejadian ngeri wanita itu bergerak menaiki pesawatnya.

Apabila dia sampai di tempat duduknya beliau membuka beg kecilnya untuk mengambil barang. Alangkah terkejutnya dia apabila melihat satu bungkusan biskut berada di dalam begnya dan ia masih elok belum terbuka.

“Jika biskut ini ada dalam beg aku jadi bermakna biskut yang aku makan tadi…” getusnya.

Ya.. .biskut yang dimakannya tadi adalah kepunyaan lelaki itu. Alangkah malunya dia atas segala tindakannya terhadap lelaki itu. Lelaki itu telah sanggup berkongsi biskut dengannya sehingga biskut yang terakhir biarpun dari awal lagi wanita itu telah menunjukkan reaksi marahnya.

Untuk meminta maaf sudah terlambat namun hatinya penuh kekesalan kerana bersifat kedekut dan tidak mahu berkongsi dengan orang lain. Kini dia menyedari bahawa dialah pencuri biskut yang sebenar.

Elle : Saya amat suka akan kisah cinta ini. Kerana ia menunjukkan betapa baiknya si lelaki itu even si gadis ini memakan biskut beliau. Lelaki itu cool saja. Tak marah, tak apa. Siap dia berkongsi lagi biskut yang terakhir itu dengan si gadis ini. Tidakkah lelaki ini romantik? ;)) Mesti si gadis ini rasa bersalah sangat-sangat sebab menganggap yang bukan-bukan dan memarahi lelaki tersebut. :)

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Kisah Hati

11.29pm 18 DEC 2010

Nah, ambil la benda ni.
Apa ni?
Ini adalah hati. Hati aku.
Hati kau? Hmm.. kenapa kau sudi kasi kat aku?
Sebab kau dah jadik sebahagian dari aku.
Kau lebih dari seorang kawan.
Terima kasih… . ianya bererti. Aku terlalu menghargainya.
Oh ye ke… tapi maaf.
Untuk apa?
Sebab, hati tu aku tak beri sepenuhnya.
Cuma sebahagian saja…

Maksud kau?
Aku pernah beri hati aku kat orang lain juga.
Dan aku tak pernah beri kesemuanya.
Aku takut aku tiada hati untuk diri aku sendiri.
Mungkin aku takut, hati itu tidak akan dijaga dengan sebaik-baiknya.
Ianya bukan seperti barangan lain seperti duit, permata dan sebagainya.
Hati ini penuh mistik, ada keajaiban yang tersendiri.

Mistik? Kelakar bunyinya…
Mungkin kelakar. Tapi itu realitinya.
Ia juga berubah mengikut rentak hidup engkau.
Rentak perasaan orang yang aku beri.
Jika dia betul-betul ikhlas, hati ini akan indah dan bersinar.
Tapi, jika dia mempersia-siakannya, hati ini akan malap.
Mungkin akan terus mati untuknya.

Ianya bukan satu benda yang percuma.

Hati ini diberi hanya kepada insan yang terpilih sahaja.
Insan yang istimewa.
Dan kau adalah salah seorang daripada mereka, kerana naluri aku terlalu percayakan kau.

Aku insan terpilih?
Ya, kau yang terpilih.
Hati ini sering bertukar-tukar mengikut perasaan orang yang diberikan.
Ianya terlalu sensitif.
Tapi ianya cukup kebal dan kental pada musuh aku.
“Musuh”, mungkin terlalu kejam untuk aku memperkatakan perihal mereka ini.
Ianya tak berubah-berubah seperti yang terjadi jika hati ini diberi pada orang yang istimewa.

Hati aku hanya tinggal sebahagian sahaja.
Ada orang yang tidak pernah memulangkannya, walaupun aku hanya pinjamkan sekejap.
Ada yang pulangkan dengan penuh kelukaan.
Ada yang sudi berikan sebahagiaan hatinya pula sebagai ganti.
Dan jika kau nak tahu, setiap hati manusia ada nilai yang tersendiri.
Setiapnya terlalu mistik!

Cuma satu saja yang kau tak mengerti.
Sekali hati itu terluka, kadangkala sukar nak mengubatinya.
Ada kalanya, mengambil masa yang lama untuk itu.
Dan bila tiba sesuatu yang tidak diingini, mungkin pemilik hati itu akan menyendiri buat seketika…
Sehingga hatinya pulih seperti sediakala.

Hati yang diberi ini bukan untuk suka-suka.
Ianya lahir atas satu kepercayaan.
Dari situ, wujudlah kasih sayang.
Jika hilang rasa percaya itu, maka sukarlah untuk hati itu kembali indah.
Mungkin takkan bersinar semula.

Friday, April 30, 2010

Im Sorry I Lied...

Jenny was so happy about the house they had found. For once in her life that was on the right side of town. She unpacked her things with such great ease. As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze. How wonderful it was to have her own room. School would be starting, she would have friends over soon. There will be sleep-overs, and parties. She was so happy. It's just the way she wanted her life to be.

On the first day of school, everything went great. She made new friends and even got a date! She thought, "I want to be popular and I'm going to be, because I just got a date with the star of the team!" To be known in this school you had to have a clout, and dating this guy would sure help her out. There was only one problem stopping her fate. Her parents had said she was too young to date. "Well I just won't tell them the entire truth. They won't know the difference. What's there to lose?"

Jenny asked to stay with her friends that night. Her parents frowned but said, "All right." Excited, she got ready for the big event. But as she rushed around like she had no sense, she began to feel guilty about all the lies, but what's a pizza, a party, and a moonlight ride? Well the pizza was good, and the party was great, and the moonlight ride would have to wait, for Jeff was half drunk by this time.

But he kissed her and said that he was just fine. Then the room filled with smoked and Jeff took a puff. Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff. Now Jeff was ready to ride to the point, but only after he'd smoked another joint.

They jumped in the car for the moonlight ride, not thinking that he was too drunk to drive. They finally made it to the point at last, and Jeff started trying to make a pass. A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all (and by a pass, I don't mean playing football.) "Perhaps my parents were right. Maybe I am too young. Boy, how could I ever, ever be so dumb?" With all of her might, she pushed Jeff away, "Please take me home, I don't want to stay."

Jeff cranked up the engine and floored the gas. In a matter of seconds they were going too fast. As Jeff drove on in a fit of wild anger, Jenny knew that her life was in danger. She begged and pleaded for him to slow down, but he just got faster as they neared the town. "Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied. I really went out for a moonlight ride."

Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash. "Oh God, Please help us! We're going to crash!" She doesn't remember the force of impact. Just that everything all of a sudden went black. She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble, and heard, "Call an ambulance! These kids are in trouble!" Voices she heard, a few words at best. But she knew there were two cars involved in the wreck.

Then wondered to herself if Jeff was all right, and if the people in the other car was alive. She awoke in the hospital to faces so sad. "You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad." These voices echoed inside her head, as they gently told her that Jeff was dead. They said "Jenny, we've done all we can do. But it looks as if we'll lose you too." "But the people in the other car?" Jenny cried. "We're sorry, Jenny, they also died."

Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done. I only wanted to have just one night of fun." "Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim, and wish I could return their families to them." "Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied, and that it's my fault so many have died. Oh, nurse, won't you please tell them that for me?"

The nurse just stood there. She never agreed. But took Jenny's hand with tears in her eyes. And a few moments later Jenny died. A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your best to bid that girl her one last request?" She looked at the man with eyes so sad. "Because the people in the other car were her mom and dad."

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

New Episode of Me!! I Love U

I'm so sad and depressed
Is all I want to do is rest
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can't fight

I think of you lying in that bed
And wonder if there is anything I could have said
I wish you were still here
But I know that you are still near

I love you more than you know
I just wish you didn't have to go
I just want one more day with you
And I know thats what you would have wanted too

I miss you more and more each day
There is so much more we had to say
I know I will see you again
But my life is just started to begin.

I went to pick up my best friend on September,5 2008. It was supposed to be an ordinary run of the mill kind of day. We were going to the Kuantan, to the movies, and just to hang out. She called me and asked if we could also pick up her boyfriend to spend the day. I said sure. We go and pick him up and he asked me if it was all right to pick up his nephew. I said, "sure, why not make this a better day?" Little did I know. We pulled up to his apartment complex and he came out of the door. I saw the handsomest angel sent from God Himself. He came down and got in the car. I was driving, and every now and then, I would look in the rear view mirror and I saw him looking at me. He made me feel kind of nervous at first, but as the day went on, I kind of relaxed. We drove up to this point where if you stand on the hill, you can see forever. My friend and her man went down the hill, and his nephew followed them down. My best friend told him to go back up the hill and come and talk to me. He was nervous, because he said "I don't know what to talk about." She said, "say whatever comes into your mind." I can remember the first question I ever asked him. "When's your birthday?" (I had to break the ice somehow.). He started to talk about the bees, the plants, and the birds. He calls me his "Nature Girl", because that's where we met, in the middle of nature. We talked for hours on end, until the sun was practically setting. We exchanged numbers, and he called me exactly 20 minutes later. (that's how long it took me to get home after dropping everybody off). We talked almost all night long, and before the conversation was over, he told me that he loved me, and I told him I felt the same way. Needless to say, that was the beginning of our forever. We have been together now for 2 years, 5 months, and 9 days. Baby, I love you, and I am so happy that we came to pick you up on that beautiful day in September.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Episode 3^^^Bersama Adik2 Ku.....

Blog yg tersayang.....

Cuaca hari ni panas suam2 kuku kaki je....

Seperti yang dah di plan kan, hari ni aku kene jage budak2 ni sementara umi ngan abah gi tengok konvo abang kt SACC Convec Centre.....Pening gak mule2 nk bwk budak2 ni gi mane...abang bg cadangan bawak je gi Sunway...tgk Alice In Wonderland...ish...xmo lerr....ramai org kot nnt....tiket pon blm tentu ade... So aku amek keputusan ktorang lepak area Shah Alam je....hehe....

1st aku bwk dorg jalan2 gi kt Akuarium sebelah Wet World...jalan kaki dr PKNS...hehhe...kesian Ezry kene jalan kaki...bising giler mulut die tanye tu tanye ni..huhu
Sepanjang jalan gi sane suke sangat die tgk ikan2 kat tasik tu...ade kura2 besar...blm sampai akuarium pn dah leh tgk mcm2 ikan... Sesampainye kt akuarium,excited giler budak2 ni...duk sebut2 name ikan...hahaha....comel pn ade gak kadang2...wahahaha...Kt sejam setengah gak duk kt dalam tu...ezry ngan udang die...farah plak ngan arowana die...minat beno...hhuhu....penat melayan budak2 ni... Then after akuarium ktorang berjalan patah Plaza Alam Sentral...Jalan punye jalan,lastly sampai....Tmpt 1st ktorang tuju ialah bowling nye tempat..Best gak melayan tgk org men..ktorang x bwk stoking so aku x bg r dorg men..hehehhe...then tibe2 aku tringat kt sini sepatut nye ade tempat aku pn msg manal tanye kt mane tempat tu...hehehe...

We've Found It!!! Amek mase 1jam nyanyi2...<<--semua dikontrol oleh ezry...x bg org nyanyi...die je nk nyanyi..haha Pastu ktorang merewang gi SACC Mall plak..da penat giler dah ni..sungguh x ktorang pn pg melepak dalam MPH Bookstore... Melalui proses bace2 ni aku dah ngantok dah..Ezry ngan Farah ni bukan men lagi seronok...mane x nye,,buku yg dorg minat sume ade..giler arhh...aku je terkapai2 sorg tgk buku yg banyak...adessss.... Lepas 1jam stengah kot kt MPH tu,umi pn call ckp event dah abesss....LEGA!!! =D i love u my adiksss!!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Episode 2~~Hmmmmm!!

My dearie blog.......

Cuaca ari ni agak panas n mmg panas....huh!! hati ni pn agak panas....=D

Bangun tido pagi tadi aku ade msg ngan Bf Saiful neh....hmmmm.....die plan nk gi KLCC...ok fine...xde pon ura2 nk ajak aku....xpe lah...mungkin hari ni hari die ngan kawan2 die yang tersayang tu... I DON'T MIND.... WUTEVER!! <<--sounds jeles kn?? B.O.N.G.O.K......ape2 je aku xnk ganggu die arini..aku terus siap2 gi classs.....

Merangkak pegi ke kul 10 class English by Dr.PK pon dismisssss...huh...lega gilerr....hehehe....then after dat reen ajak makan kt rafi....trun2 dr kelas tu nmpak Azie n Cece..dorg ajak gi kt Rafi Bistro.....So ktorang pn follow...Rafi Bistro pon mcm best gak...tmpt die xde laa open air sgt sbb ade bhg executive kt dalam...ade aircond lg...best2...

Kt sane ade Azie,Reen,Cece,Lorren,Vee,Chitra,kwn2 Vee n Chitra ( sorry,forgot ur names...),Qayyum,Nad n Kak Timah...

Lepak ngan dorg ni best...hehe...mentang2 smalam sir suh cari environment baru,terus cr member...=D after finished mkn,gi jumpe Pn.Salbiah..(mentor tersayang) nk register subjek tuk sem depan...kt stengah jam gak tunggu baru die dtg...bru abes class kate nye...ok xpe...siapkan dat one cepat2 then trus gerak gi DigiLab...konon2 nk study r...nk wat FM..hahahahaha....padahal x jadi pn...sesampainye depan DigiLab,dah parking kete,xde sorg pn turun dr kete..mahupun nad,reen,qayyum n aku...duk bersengal2 dalam kete,pas Nad wat2 bajet cute(wahahahhaha..padan muka),Qayyum cite2 pasal ulat kuar dr muka,baru lah ktorang tercakap yang xde mood nk study....So ktorang pn blah dr tmpat parking tu....

Destinasi seterusnye adalah tmpat pembinaan MSU baru...ade org x pnh pg sane....disebabkan kesian sgt,reen pn bwk lah org tu pg sane....haha...Cantik tmpt tu...progress cepat giler...x lame lagi kot siap...(jangan mimpi laahh weiii)....

Then lepas bermesra2 kt sane,ktorang gerak gi Giant...Reen n Qayyum nk gi RhB follow...aku tunggu dalam kete.... dalam 20 min gak depa pegi....agak lame aku tunggu...huhu...then finished kt sane....

Selepas tu, antar Qayyum n Nad kt kete bapak Qayyum...sbb kejadian smlm Qayyum xleh bwk kete die arini...(igt x? =D) After dat,aku ajak Reen gi Seksyen 11 sbb nk gi amek bil letrik kt TNB...Ajak Manal skali...So skg bil da dapat...tunggu nk bayar je...da tertunggak 3 bulan kot!! banyak seyyhhh....aku kene kutip nnt...kerah2 org cm Ah Long je.....=p

Me update later...lalalala~~tata